I used to go for long drives when I was feeling antsy or anxious or trapped and had no other outlet. Usually after an hour or so of driving rural back roads, I would be ready to be done and unsure of what I had accomplished. But now that I can't get out and go through the gears, I see the value there. Those drives were an attempt to replicate a run, hike, or bike. It was a scaled back freedom. It was a much needed counterweight to that trapped feeling. Trapped in the house, trapped in my room, trapped in my body.