Step Two Can be Difficult

Perhaps the most important question to ask is why.  Why do you live?  For what purpose?  Those who struggle to find a purpose struggle in life.  

1)  Recognize the need for purpose
2)  Find a purpose
3)  Fulfill your purpose

Step two can be difficult.

Fact #1

At my last doctor’s appointment I weighed 128.5 pounds.  It is very difficult to keep weight on.  

I might be done with Facebook.  I'm tired of seeing all of the awesome things people are doing.  

I am Cryptic

I was only thinking of myself.  Easy to do.  Maybe I was self-centered, or filled with pity, or more likely it was all I could handle.  But I was wrong.  

There are others.  I see them every day.  They put on a face.  For me.  With me.  

We pretend.  We make believe.  We live in the moment and block out everything else.  It works like a charm, sorta.

I haven't made peace, but I have found a way to cope.  Sometimes it's a selfish method.  Now I see that.

Let’s Give it a Shot

I’m so tired of using the past tense.  Or speaking on a topic in the present when all I know is based on the past.  Sometimes it seems like everything that is interesting and exciting in my life has already happened.  I know that is not the case, but it certainly feels that way.

There are so many conversations to which I can contribute based on things that I experienced years ago; things I can no longer experience.  When my friends talk about a hike, or a bike trip, or a round of golf, I act interested because I am interested.  For the moment I can pretend it doesn’t bother me; it’s not that hard.

But I’m tired of the past tense.  An old man might enjoy speaking of his life as a distant memory never to be seen again, but I am not that old.  I cannot look at things that are five years passed as if they were fifty.  He looks at his past with pride and a sense of normalcy; I look at mine with pride and a strange sense of disconnectedness.

Let’s talk about what’s new and what’s coming.  Let’s look forward.  Let’s embrace what we have what will be.  Let’s give it a shot.

Always Remember

Statistics don't matter to the individual.

Just a Thought

No matter how many times I am shown evidence to the contrary, I can't stop thinking Why am I the only one?