Thursday, April 17, 2014

In Case You Wanted to Know More About Me

It’s no surprise that in groups and social situations I speak less frequently than in the past.  There are so many reasons for this change. 

I have a tough time being heard over others and over background noise.

I am so tired of people not hearing me, or misunderstanding a word I’ve said.

Not to repeat myself, (oh, the irony) but I hate repeating myself.

I don’t have as much to say.  I don’t have as much going on in my life as I once did, or as you do.  

I’m not as willing to share stories about my cats as some others may be.

I am not apt to launch into a long story, even if it is pertinent to the situation.  I am more likely to bring up a topic or story, and then defer to a friend with a common memory to tell it.

Humor (my specialty) depends largely upon delivery.  My delivery is terrible.

Many times I would rather be a listener, ask questions and allow others to speak.  What can I say?  I am old and wise.

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Another Quotable Quote to be Quoted

David McCullough is an excellent historian and writer.  If you have the time and desire to commit to reading any of his books, you will be pleasantly surprised by his skill as a writer and impressed by the rich history you will discover.  He brings historical figures alive with primary-sourced material, giving new life to words such as these, written in a private journal by Theodore Roosevelt regarding his older brother Elliott.

As soon as we got here he took some ale to get the dust out of his throat; then a milk punch because he was thirsty; a mint julep because it was hot; a brandy smash "to keep the cold out of his stomach"; and then sherry and bitters to give him an appetite.  He took a very simple dinner – soup, fish, salmi de grouse, sweetbread, mutton, venison, corn, macaroni, various vegetables and some puddings and pies, together with beer, later claret and in the evening shandygaff.

Fancy.

Friday, April 11, 2014

Empathy is a Made-Up Word

There is a drug called Charlotte’s Web that is legal in Colorado and nowhere else.  It is an incredibly effective treatment for epileptic seizures and is legally available in but one state.  I don’t remember any of the Pfizer, Astra-Zeneca, or Merck products looking to solve the world’s small bladder, varicose vein, and impotence problems being available in limited areas.  Don’t get me wrong, if I couldn’t get it up, I would gladly take a drug for that, but while corporations have tackled the type of First-World problems that get Americans ridiculed, the availability of a potentially life-saving drug has been delayed far too long.  I say delayed because I don’t know that drugs like these won’t become available in the days to come; I hope they will.  And I say potentially because as the critics will tell you, the testing on these “healers” has been limited.

And while onlookers can see the big picture, await the testing, and applaud generously when government finally concludes in their favor, the individual suffers.  The masses may be okay with waiting out the appropriate processes, but those with a horse in the race would like to see the finish line before hope is lost. 

And testing has been limited, forcing even the most ardent of supporters to urge caution.  Potential might not sound like much, but for those with little hope, for those without control, it means everything.  Potential is better than nothing, and when you feel you have nothing to lose, the unknown that might help is a hell of a lot better than the known that doesn’t.

Imagine this, imagine you’re a parent, and you watch your child struggle every day in pain, and you know there is little you can do.  I believe that is that sort of thing that could drive a parent to insanity.

Now I understand that empathy is a made up word, and sympathy is hard to come by, but if it were me I’d do right by those who suffer.

And I don’t want to hear that It’s just not possible, or that We’re not there yet, or that These things take time, or There’s a lot of red tape involved.   Make an exception, make it happen, get off your infallible high horse and do some good. 

There is no doubt in my mind that if I were one of these parents I would break the law.  I would drive, fly, or walk to Colorado to get this drug.  I would do whatever I could for my child and for myself.  And if I was pulled over, if I was caught I would laugh whole-heartedly.  The idea that I was doing something wrong, that I was an evil-doer to be locked up with those who have inflicted harm upon others is so utterly ridiculous it defies reason. 

And then I imagine I’m the cop.  I took an oath to uphold the law; to be a moral man.  If it cost me my career I wouldn’t arrest you.  How would that make me the good guy?  Secretly I would hope it might come to that. 

Whether I was the cop who refused to do his duty and arrest a user of illegal drugs, or the holder of those drugs taken into custody of the state, I would raise such a stink it would almost make the injustice worth it.  I would use the opportunity to build momentum for change.  I would be proud to have done such good.  And in the meantime I would painstakingly watch as those who suffered continued to wait.  I would be immersed in the struggle; nothing could be done fast enough to relieve my pain.

Perhaps it is easier to ignore.  It is easier for the masses to ignore the problems of the few.  For this is a drug for the few.  It is not the cure to cancer.  It will not positively (or negatively) affect the lives of the masses.  But to the mother, the father, the family of a suffering child, that doesn’t matter.  Statistics don’t matter to the individual.  One in ten-thousand or one in a million is still one, and for that one, the fact that he or she is the only one doesn’t make it any easier, instead it makes it harder.

Moron Drugs

Have you seen those drug commercials where the spokesman warns of possible involuntary muscle movements?  He urges those experiencing this side effect to call their doctor immediately “as they may become permanent”.  This is somewhat shocking to me, (almost as much as the drug which warns not to combine with grapefruit or its juice).  As an aside I also like the drug that “may cause diarrhea” which is normal, or “severe diarrhea” which requires you call your doctor immediately.  You could also stop taking prescription-strength laxatives and instead eat something that doesn’t turn your insides to cement.

Back to my point, I experience these sorts of uncontrolled muscle movements often and it goes without saying that you don’t want to.  My latest annoyance; off and on over the past few days my right pinky has enjoyed jumping around and straightening itself every few seconds.  Most of the time these types of things are merely an annoyance, except when I’d like to be sleeping.

It’s amazing the casual nature with which this severe side effect is stated in the commercial.  Of course the drug company is a) required to state the known side effects (though it appears not all of them) and b) would rather not cause more alarm than necessary.  But I still find it distressing.  As far as I’m concerned most drug commercials should say “Taking this drug will fuck with your body in ways you couldn’t have imagined before.  Good luck!”

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Tribute to George Thorogood - (I Drink Alone)

I don't often get angry, or maybe I live in a state of perpetual anger; I'm not sure.  But when I am told that in most cases social security an/or disability income is not taxed (and therefore taxes are not withheld) and upon finishing my taxes I owe just shy of a combined $1000 to the federal and state governments, I get a bit miffed.  And there's no whiskey in the house...

Friday, April 4, 2014

What's in a Closet?

For 5+ years I wore a shirt and tie five (okay four on the tie) days a week.  I've worn a button down shirt five times in the last year.  Three of those times were for weddings.  I have a lot of really nice clothes, it's just too much of a hassle to wear them.  Instead I wear jeans and a tee shirt most every day and I go without socks as much as possible.  Many, perhaps me included, would choose this alternative, but I wasn't given the choice.

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

In My Head Again

There are a number of phrases I find myself repeating in my head.  One of them is as follows:

My body has given up on me.