I get out of the shower and lay on my bed. I look at the pictures on the wall. One of Nick and I in the apple tree, him smiling and looking at the camera, me with half-eaten apple in hand, oblivious to the camera. The other of Nick and I wearing aviation headsets in the back seat of a plane, him in the background smiling and looking at the camera, me in the foreground sticking my tongue out. My eyes well up a bit and I think, What the fuck happened?